I didn’t even realize how much stuff has changed since I’ve last been on here. I’m in college and sometimes I feel really cool saying “when i was in high school.” Just because thats a really cool thing to say when you’re in college.

Being away from my family is so weird. I haven’t seen my family in a month. But I feel closer to them than I ever have. “Absence makes the heart grow fonder;” totally true.

My major has changed. No more theatre for Megan. I’m going to use my artistic abilities to serve the Lord. I’m taking five geneds to get them all out of the way, and my teachers are phenomenal.

I’ve joined inter varsity christian club where I’ve met some seriously wonderful people who have already began to touch my heart in more ways than I could possibly imagine.

I’m volunteering with Ride with Pride so that I can rekindle my involvement with horses and hopefully take my life in the direction of helping animals and disabled kids.

I’m hopefully going to join an acapella group called “Into Hymn,” which is a christian based acapella group. I love Jesus and I love to sing so joining the two is absolutely perfect. 

And I’ve recently ended a relationship with someone who I thought I knew. And thats been the craziest part of this whole journey. Isn’t it weird that you know someone, and I mean you really know all of someone for almost a year, and then they turn out to be a completely different person than you thought? They had you convinced that they were giving their life to you; their time energy money and love, but in reality it was the complete opposite. They were really just sucking all of that from you and giving none in return. You know what, I’m going to find a guy who thinks God shines out of every part of me, and a guy who will serve me even when I don’t deserve it. Cause that is the undying, unconditional love that God teaches. 

“So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be.” Perks of Being a Wallflower